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ODIBIL
by Todd Reppert
Roman Miller sat in the doctor’s office tapping his
sole on the rug as if sending Morse code to the tenants below.
His wife sat beside him smiling. He did not like it when she
smiled. There was a time when this was not true. When they
first met in high school, he liked to see her teeth, but now he
preferred his companionship to be a bit more morose.

“Don’t be nervous, Mr. Miller.” The doctor, a woman with her
office wallpapered in diplomas from institutions Ivy and
otherwise, also smiled at Roman. “It’s completely natural for a
man to harbor anxieties about the procedure. I can assure you,
it’s quick and painless.”

“And the pills work?” He sheared a sliver of translucent skin off
a cuticle with his front teeth.

“The procedure has been performed on over three hundred
million men worldwide. The results speak for themselves. The
benefits for middle-aged men like yourself seem to be even
more significant.”

“The benefits are all anyone ever talks about,” Roman said.

“Honey.” His wife patted his fluctuating thigh.

“Why shouldn’t they, Mr. Miller? There are no side effects.”

“Except the one.”

“You have to see that urge in your loins as the drawback,” the
doctor said, pulling a plastic model of the male genitalia into
view on her desk, one of those displays where the pieces can
be pulled apart and put back together to demonstrate a point.
“Its absence can be a blessing.”

“Honey, we agreed.” His wife appeared nervous now. Her left
eye twitched. She enjoyed hiding her anxiety, but Roman had
recently discovered how her worries manifested themselves
physically and it was always with her left eye. “This is best for
our family. Think about the promotion they promised you once
you have the procedure.”

“What sort of man will I be?” Roman looked with angst at both
women in the room.

“I would say, Mr. Miller, that having the procedure allows you to
be the best man you can be.” The doctor held the plastic model
in the palm of her hand. “The data proves that men undergoing
the procedure have above average IQs and a true love for their
families. They want to be able to focus on what is important.
You do not lose your sexual desire, you only disconnect from it
when you do not require it. When you and your wife are ready
for intercourse, you take an Odibil and within minutes you are
aroused. For a couple of hours you have the urge and then it
goes away until you require it again.”

“You mean until my wife requires it again.”

“Honey.”

“Only she gets the prescription for the pills, right?” Roman
stood up, but the room felt uneven as if it were tilting to the
right. “I cannot just walk into a pharmacy and get a refill?” He
held on to the chair’s arm as if he were on a bus careening
wildly down the avenue.

“That is the way it has to work,” the doctor said. “Did you
know, Mr. Miller, that countries where the most men have had
the procedure have correspondingly higher GDP growth rates?
Divorce rates are in the single digits. High school graduation
rates exceeding 99%...”

Roman brushed his hand at the doctor. She must have thought
he wanted her to stop talking, which he did, but what he really
wanted was for her to put the plastic model in a drawer. The
sight of it was upsetting.

“I feel sick,” he said. A sick deep in the gut, the prelude to
some awful retching he feared he would be unable to control.

“A normal reaction,” the doctor tried to say with reassurance
while pushing up the bridge of her glasses.

“Honey,” Miller’s wife whispered, pulling on his wrist to get him
back into the chair. “We talked about this with the therapist.”

“Mr. and Mrs. Miller, after the procedure you will have no use
for the trivialities of marriage counseling.”

Scattered amongst all the framed Latin-stenciled parchments
on the wall were pictures of the doctor with a man of about her
age.

“And your husband,” Roman asked. “Has he had the procedure?”

“One of the first.”

“Oh honey,” his wife cooed clutching his hands in hers now. “I
want this for us so much.”

Roman looked at the plastic model in the doctor’s hand and up
to her smiling mouth and the diplomas on the wall and the
framed pictures of a happy couple and then at the joyful
anticipation on his wife’s face. She had a look like that twenty-
years ago when they bought their first house, the one Roman
thought was overpriced. He bought that house anyway, at full
price.

“It’s permanent?” The doctor nodded. “And the State covers all
costs?”

“The procedure and thirty Odibil a month,” the doctor said as
she put the genitalia in the drawer.

“For life?”

“For a good, long life.”

*  *  *

A year later, the Millers were back in the doctor’s office.
Everything looked the same to Roman, same things on the
wall, same white coat on the doctor, same glasses on her face,
same carpet on the floor. Only now, his foot was steady. He
felt calm. It was his wife who was in a state of desperation.

“The pills are not working, doctor,” Mrs. Miller said. “Every time
he takes one he loses interest faster. They should last for a
couple hours like it says on the label, like it used to last him.”

“Yes, that is the prescription,” the doctor said pulling out a
sheet of paper. Roman wondered where the plastic model of
the male genitalia was.

“Congratulations by the way,” the doctor said. “I saw on the
news your company went public. You’ve done well for yourself
in the year since the procedure.”

“Are we doing something wrong, doctor?” his wife interrupted,
half out of her chair as her left eye blinked with the frequency
of an FM radio station.

“Mr. Miller, are you still sexually attracted to your wife?”

“Doctor!”

Roman smiled. In another time he would have had to lie. It
was the only kind thing to do, but now he could tell the truth.

“You’re asking me when I am not presently on Odibil, so I
would have to say no.”

“Honey!” Eyelashes fell from her face. Roman thought they
were beautiful.

“Well isn’t that the point?” he asked as if stating the obvious.
“I haven’t been unfaithful.”

“Yes, but I want you to want to make love to me.”

The doctor stood up and paced the room. She went to a drawer.
Roman expected her to pull out the plastic model and while it
was a plastic model she did reveal, this was one of the female
genitalia.

“The pills allow the mind to experience sexual desire,” the
doctor said. “And the body to manifest such feelings into
physical actions, but the drug cannot create desire where there
is none.”

Roman thought about free will and smiled.

“Well there are things I can do to spice it up in the bedroom.
Leather perhaps?” His wife moved her eyes from Roman to the
doctor and back to Roman like a child looking for approval from
its parents.

“There also could be the problem of tolerance,” the doctor
added.

“Of what?”

“Like with alcohol, consistent consumption builds the body’s
tolerance such that each pill ingested has a nominally weaker
impact on reversing the conditions of the initial procedure and
regenerating the libido than the prior pill.”

“So the dosage needs to be adjusted?” his wife begged.

The doctor was not looking at Mrs. Miller when she spoke now.
She set the plastic model on the desk.

“We have seen cases in those that first received the procedure
where…the drug becomes ineffective.”

His wife gasped.

“Isn’t there another pill he can take?” Her right eyelid began to
blink. The muscles in her left had given out.

Roman put his hands behind his head and slouched a little. His
mind wandered to the house in Aspen they were about to buy.
They could ski in and ski out. The plastic model on the desk did
not upset him.

“There is an option you may want to consider, Mrs. Miller.”

“What’s that?” His wife’s voice quivered, damn near ready to
crack.

“I had it done myself after the Odibil stopped working for my
husband, and I’m quite pleased with the results.” The doctor
cupped the plastic model in her palm. “In the time I’ve had the
procedure, I have submitted five patents for approval. I‘ve
never been more productive. And my husband and I are still
very much in love…of course.”

“Procedure?” His wife held onto both chair arms.

“I assure you it’s quick and painless.”

“You mean…”

The doctor placed the plastic model back in the drawer.

“And no more need for the Odibil.”


Todd Reppert develops boutique hotel properties when he is not working
on his novel The Claykickers, based in part on the true story of a lost
nuclear warhead from the 1961 crash of a B-52 over North Carolina. He
previously served as an engineering officer in the United States Air Force.
He has attended numerous writing conferences and workshops including
the Yale Writers’ Conference. Todd recently moved from New York City to
Austin, Texas with his wife, two daughters, new baby son and an old, loyal
pug. Odibil is his first published work.